An ugly green monster really is the best definition of a jealous person because you feel sick inside and you’re ready to scream. My life would be a lot easier if I were asexual because then I wouldn’t have to deal with all these messy emotions. I’m feeling so hopeless right now for so many reasons, but mainly because of jealousy and the fact that my parents get to decide if I go back to school in the fall. I had a break down today over some stupid situation, but what it all boils down to is that I feel unwanted and under appreciated. I feel like people don’t realize how much I will do for you if I care about you. Today has been awful and emotional and I just want it to end.